Thanksgiving/Dr's visit

THANKSGIVING

Well with the holiday just 2 days away I am all nostalgic and missing my Grandparents more than ever...The thought of them not seeing the new babies is bothering me to no end. I miss them all year long it's just that I think of all the memories over the years more on the holidays. It breaks my heart to think that the girls will not know them...at least Sebastian had 4 years with them and remembers things...little things like Nana taught him to cross his fingers and Papa called him Jasper and sat on him when he was in his seat...lol...but he does have memories and talks about them often :) There is a piece of my heart that is missing with them gone and I would do anything to have that filled again. Our lives will never be the same and I know that someday we will have a holiday full of love, laughter, and family again. Last year we had a wonderful Thanksgiving and Christmas... I am just not looking forward to this years, there isnt much going on and I am not up to going out of my way to make things better right now. My brother and I are estranged right now and mom is in St. Louis with no plans to be here for the holidays. I know that we will make the best out of it because Sebastian needs the best memories we can give him right now.

I hope that everyone has a Happy and Safe Thanksgiving...Live, Laugh, and Love

Love to All, BETH

DR.'s VISIT

Moving on...yesterdays visit at the doctor has me concerned...not just with my health but also with the type of treatment that I am receiving.

1. The doctor pointed out that the proteins in my urine are almost to the point where they worry...and we have to watch that more carefully. (Proteins plus high blood pressure equals Toxemia) AND I DONT NEED THAT!!! But my blood pressure is under control with the meds so I guess we will just wait and see what happens.

2. The Doctor hardly answered any questions that I had and did not do anything that I asked of him. Then he tells me to come back in 4 weeks...I was sick of it by then and kinda lost my temper...I told him I was uncomfortable with that...these twins are getting closer and closer to being here and I want to be monitored a little more closely as this is only the 2nd time that a Dr. has even seen me and I have no idea what is going on. I wish there was something that I could do--find a different doctor or something I do not feel that they have mine or the babies best interest at heart and I REALLY do not want to have any of these doctors deliver them. I don't need any more stress on my plate...

3. When I called 2 weeks ago, they put me on bed rest because of all the pain that I was in..when I mentioned that to him he told me to take it easy but to still stay active and eat right and get plenty of exercise...is he joking I cannot even go and get Sebastian from school, I think that I know my limits and I think he doesn't even know what has been going on. (BTW this is the first time that I had met with this Dr.) He then repeated the above about exercise and watching my weight, etc...when I asked him if I had gained weight since the last visit.....They have been on me because I had done nothing but lose weight in the beginning and then not gain any for the last 3 months. I was told that I needed to gain at least 35 lbs. by the last Dr. that I saw...After telling me that I gained 11 pounds since the last visit he then told me to watch it...WTF is going on...I cant take much more of this,,,I don't know if I am coming or going anymore.

4. I told him about the new kittens that we got and that I knew I should be tested for Toxoplasmosis as they are all the time on and around me...he told me not to change the litter box. I told him that I did not do that but I was worried still because I know that pregnant women should be tested so nothing is given to the babies...He said stay away from them until after the babies are born...sure that makes sense but I wasn't talking about the future I was talking about my concerns as of right now...He is a complete dumb ass and if something is wrong with them after they are born then he can account for it. I called the clinic today and told them that I refuse to see this doctor again and they are supposed to get back with me.

Sorry for the rant, I am just extremely upset and needed to vent.

Scamp

The poor baby, Saturday night Jim was walking down the dark hallway and stepped on Scamp's leg...he let out a SCREAM and could not walk!!!! I was worried sick for 2 days wondering if it was broke and what the vet was going to say..(I was terrified at the thought of them wanting to put him to sleep...and I wasn't having that he is my baby...I Love him as much as any of my family members--NO JOKE!!) Monday morning they xrayed and said it was BROKE IN 2 PLACES. They put him on pain meds and sent him home....they did not even splint it but seem to think he will be fine. We just have to keep him confined and off the leg for the next 2-8 weeks...with Scamp this is going to seem like an eternity..he is already miserable and trying to dart out of the closet every time I open the door. I tried walking him with his back legs up and he wasnt having it...so he has all this pent up energy and I am not getting any rest at night staying up and worrying about him....hopefully he will be better soon!! I feel so awful and I am not even the one who stepped on him :( He is almost 18 years old and just doesnt deserve to be going through all this.

Sammy and Stacey @ 25w4d

Went to have another ultrasound today and the girls are doing good. They are measuring in at 25w2d and 25w6d. Sammy (A) weighs 1 lb. 12 oz. and Stacey (B) is 1lb. 15 oz. In 3 weeks they have gained a lb. each...I have a feeling they won't be small babies. The dr. said that they are great size and looking good and to come back in a month. I am so happy as I was worried about Sammy Jo's fluid levels...it has not gotten any smaller which is AWESOME--she is in good shape!! I have been worried sick about her fluid and am glad to have one less thing to worry about this month :) Still can't get over the fact that there are two coming, it gets more and more exciting all the time, I cannot wait for them to get here. I see my regular doctor Monday--until then this is all I have to update everyone on the girls....Take Care. Love, BETH